I only have one big project this whole semester, which is due tomorrow, and I save it for right now. Furthermore, I am taking a brief hiatus by writing this and letting the thoughts flow and goofing around with different color schemes. It don't make no sense.

No doubt you've heard about the shootings at Virginia Tech; my heart goes out to the victims and their families. I can't imagine being in that situation; we had a practice lockdown at my school today, and even though it wasn't for real, you could feel the tension in the room. I can't imagine what that would feel like in reality, and it breaks my heart in a million ways to think that for some people, it hasn't been just a drill.

I think we can expect there to be talk about gun accessibility and control at some point in the near future. Putting that aside for a moment, I can't help but think about what was beneath the surface of the shooter, identified as student Cho Seung-Hui. A professor and classmate recall that he had a lot of anger, and his writings for a class were "very graphic" and "extremely disturbing" (http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/04/18/vtech.shooting/index.html).

I don't want to exhaust the subject, but where did this anger come from? What were his reasons for writing plays filled with violence? When did shooting a classroom of students become a solution? When bad things happen, I can't help but ask "why, why, why."

We might never have answers, but I think it's important to consider how we treat each other and treat ourselves. Anger comes from a lot of experiences, be it alienation, humiliation, or a gamut of other happenings.

In any case, I need to get back to work. I just had to get that out.