I've decided I'm not going to cut my hair until after I graduate in May. I've never had long hair, but I'll try anything once . . .
I've also decided that I don't want to enter into any serious romantic relationships, not for a long, long , long time. I predict that there might be opportunities, but I must kindly decline. Dating . . . sure, maybe, but nothing beyond that, which includes the physical realm. It's just that I become a giant mess [especially] inside and out when relationships end, and I think I've had enough heartbreak to last me a while. It's just too terribly painful. I have some direction now regarding where I want my life to go, and I've got to focus on that.
I meant every word of that last paragraph.
Now that we've got that out of the way . . .
Sunday, January 7, 2007
Posted by swallowtail10 at 10:39 PM
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Not to be too terribly argumentative, but its my belief that as stubborn as one may be, being stubborn for stubborness' sake is in fact ignorance of self. To deny the possibility of relationship with all its attachments is foolhardy to be sure, for who can truly control one's feelings? And if so, does one even have the right to do so?
Hey- Don't even worry about being argumentative, I really do appreciate your input.
I suppose that being stubborn is a form of self protection. I can control my feelings by not having them in the first place (as callous as that sounds).
In terms of having the right to do so , I've become more aware of what I want and need for myself. I've found my bearings, and I'm not willing to let them fly out from under me again. I invest so much of myself in romantic relationships, and when they end, an integral part of my mental and physical self goes into paralysis. I suppose that one could argue I'm being selfish . . . but I need to be right now.
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