Bear with me. These next couple of months are going to be tough for me.

Time can do a lot, but it's impossible to predict what it will bring. Argue all you want about statistics, the odds of the universe, religion . . . we simply don't know for sure.

It's the interim that kills me.

Taking a cue from the Killers, smile like you mean it. That's going to be my goal.

I went to the grocery store yesterday, and passed by the deodorant section to find the one that he wears. I stood there and smelled it, then walked away.

It's going to be a while until I can go in and buy yogurt and bananas without smelling deodorant.

Does anyone else remember this song?

The Verve Pipe- "Freshmen"

When I was young and knew everything
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken
Sobbing with my head on the floor
Stompin' baby's breath and a shoe full of rice

I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

(Chorus)
For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

My best friend took a week's
Vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of
Valium and slept
Now he's guilt stricken sobbing with his
Head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really
Wept he says

I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

(Chorus)

We've tried to wash our hands of all of this
We never talk of our lack in relationships
And how we're guilt stricken sobbing with our
Heads on the floor
We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip
We'd say

I can't be held responsible
Cause she was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place