I'm lucky.

Out of nowhere, someone has entered my life.

I swore that I was done, that I was going to live for myself for a while, that I wanted to be independent to the core, that school and my friends were going to be my main focuses here, and that I would follow through with that.

I'm torn.

I feel like I've known him a lot longer than I have, and I've never experienced that.

It's new, and I like it.

I'm not the kind of girl who "needs" to be with someone.

It's just that sometime there's a connection there that makes me grateful to be human, just so as to be able to experience it.

For the first time since my grandma died, things sometimes feel like they're normal and good again.

I don't know how these things work. I want a course of action, a plan B, a troubleshooting guide, just in case things go wrong.

It's the possibility that they won't go wrong, though, that keeps me coming back.

I forgot to note that I went to see Body Worlds (http://www.dmns.org/main/en/) this past Saturday. I drove up and met my dad and sister there.

It was a display of human organs, as well as real bodies that had been preserved by some complicated process. The bodies were made to look like they were doing things like skateboarding or dancing.

I suppose that some could make an argument against the exhibit, but personally, I thought it was worth seeing.

"In life there is nothing more unexpected and surprising than the arrivals and departures of pleasure. If we find it in one place to-day, it is vain to seek it there to-morrow. You can not lay a trap for it." - Alexander Smith

Alright, so . . . there's this guy.

I have so much going on right now, I feel like I'm barely able to keep my head above water.

I feel like I spend a lot of my time just not knowing what I want . . .

The good news:

The knee is only swollen now, with bits of instability thrown in here and there, so I think I'm in the clear . . .

The bad news:

SW340 research paper due Thursday
L301G Aufsatz corrections due Monday
HSCC300 Survey research project due 4/5
PY327 Trafficking of Women 4/6
L301G Referate 4/10
SW330 Community Readiness Assessment 4/13
L301G Aufsatz 4/17
SW340 Biopsychosocial Report 4/20
L301G Pruefung 4/21
HSCC300 Single subject design project 4/26
PY327 Budget 5/2

. . . throw in finals and study abroad meetings, and it's going to be a grand ole time!

I did this partly to lay everything out for my own convenience, partly to give me credibility for being "busy."

The fam- damily + my pup are coming up next weekend, and it's going to be fantastic.

I went over to the girls' apartment last night, and started dancing and goofing off. At one point, my knee just gave out, and went out from under me. I went to sit down and rest, and after a while I thought it was ok. It happened again, however, and this time I landed on my hands and knees.

I woke up today and it hurt like none other. I went to Urgent Care and it turns out that some movement I made popped the knee cap out of place, given that where I was having pain is where the location of the attachments are.

I think it's fair to say that the month of March has never looked favorably upon me.

I'm finding that I'm becoming more in tune with the concept of blogging, hence my move here from www.xanga.com/oldblue10. Comments are encouraged.